Wednesday, January 24, 2018

I don't think I'm depressed, but maybe I'm overwhelmed?

I find myself in a strange head-space, which is something I've been going through for a while now. Only 24 days into this new year and I can feel the waves of mutation coming in through my soul, piercing my energy fields, and haunting my pineal gland like some sort of goblin. It really should be more fun than it feels, but it's like wearing an uncomfortable pair of underpants. 

Like many beings cursed with a cognizance, I crave sensation, wisdom, and on occasion, material possession. My transitions, or at least the transitions I'm trying to make, are happening rather slowly and I feel pretty frustrated because of that. I actually don't need a lot to be happy, but I need a lot to survive which is surprising. Maybe I'm just greedy and in denial. 

It could be my internal clock has finally gone off, and I feel the subconscious need to do more adult-like things like own a home, drive, and give a shit about politics. What horror is this! 

Well hopefully I can find my way and find resonance within this new mind of mine so I can finally make peace with the current reality tunnel I've built for myself. Phasing in and out of different perspectives and thoughts has me feeling pretty worn out. 

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